N/A Beer (continued)
I remember in early recovery....., Oh, by the way my name is Jeffery Dean Ruiz and I am A 44 year old dude with six years and some change not taking any mind altering substances. So any hoo, I remember when I hadn't takin' anything for a couple months and I was feelin' so fucking good physically and mentally and I had an excess amount of energy for everything. Well, there was this alcohol and drug free camp out at a place called Spicer Meadows right off the Stanislaus River that I went too and I thought I'd bring beverages to offer and so I brought a couple cases of non alcoholic beer to offer my new found group of friends. The beer was simply called N/A BEER. I was so thrilled about bringing this copasetic swill to the camp out. I am very ritualistic and I just loved the idea of drinking shitloads of these puppies by the campfire roasting marsh mellows and talking smack.
Well the cases of virgin beer didn't go over anywhere near as well as I thought they would. I remember feeling embarrassed, upset, disappointed, angry....., I remember feeling all kinds of feelings at once. I thought I was fucked for a moment because my first thoughts were, "OH fuck, these self righteous nerdy insecure judgemental fucked up invalids even thinking drinking beer with no hooch in it is satanic.
Jeffrey Dean Ruiz
44 , Berkeley, CA